LOVE OR HATE?!!!

it sucks sometimes when everything starts to be so complacent... like every speck of existing matter slows down and though you try to rush and move as fast as you can, you're trapped in a space-time continuum where memories of your downfall are played back over and over again. No, it isn't purgatory or hell 'coz you still get to experience a frequent dose of bliss every now and then. i don't want to use the word "bored", that's too typical... it undermines the things i am fond of but in a way it still epitomizes what's left in between.. Yes, i got only a few months left before the big day and you might be wondering that i must have so many things to do and finish so how in the world am i still bored?!.. yup, you're mostly right but still those things are only superficial and it won't take a genius to accomplish them. To tell you the truth, i ain't too hyped up about them anyway... like i said a million times, it ain't easy to love such nonsense.. well at least for me. i consider this course bogus.. after all, since the ghettgo, this was not my preference of choice. This is a profession that i do not hate but i despise due to the fact that so many are blinded with the false assurance of fame and money. i hate schools who use this course as a means to commercialize their institutions only then to tell half of the student body that they do not have the capacity to be promoted to the next level. And these gullible students, because of the false lure, just transfer to another school and continue where they left off. Then they graduate sparingly and now find themselves kneeling in some place, praying that they would pass the board exams. I mean seriously guys out of 100,000 students, how many would you think would instantly or at least be directed to the jackpot.. The promise of working abroad ain't too far from reality but this wolf in a sheep's clothing may offer less or more than you ever expected. If you believe that by just graduating and passing the board either locally or internationally would give you a fighting chance in the coldness and harshness of the real world, then you must rethink ever step you are taking now; try to accurately recall all the details and scrutinize everything so as you would leave no room for error.. i know you know that this road would not be easy but still why are there still so many who are willing to sacrifice blood and money just so they could try their luck. This isn't Russian roulette where you spin and pray you get your number right. This isn't poker where you could bluff your way and pretend that you're passing this course and eventually graduate or just fold when all of your cards are down.. Let me remind you that still this is survival of the fittest because only the crème de la crème would get the spot they eagerly fought for.. Mind you im not downplaying those people who really have the heart to be a nurse and the people who i see have a potential to be one too, its just that some individuals must be reminded that if this is not your cup of tea, you should ponder to yourself where would you be in the very near future or at least strive harder so as you would deserve to be here. i maybe criticized because of writing this, well, i say it to you now, though i may show a hint of interest in this route, don't ever judge me that Iam not doing my best because in all honesty, i'm not. What you may have witness before is just a shadow of a persona you may not be able to see.. This heart of mine has no warmth for this profession. my mind is the only thing that moves due to the fact that it is always my innate orientation; never to let up.. For me, i choose to just finish this course and then pick my destiny. i am proud to be wearing the white but i do not dream of wearing it as i grow old. Some say i'm just wasting my time and my potential, i say it's never i waste when you learn things along the way. I will choose my own path to tread, i will make my own fame and i will get to decide what to put into my name..

Now if you were me, would you pick a different path?

Written on : July 6, 2007 at 6:23 am